Friday, April 04, 2008
Sigh i have that heart sinking to my feet feeling again. Both physically and mentally. im so so so tired and there's nothing to look forward to except my bed, which although seems like the best thing is but an inanimate object. i should be contented cos sleep is probably just what i need but im not. oh well. i really should be happy with what i have. Anyway vic told me, and i agree that the vicious cycle is starting again. Like i get so tired i dont do my work and i just keep not doing it until its the exams and i realize how screwed i am but its too late. i kept telling myself i wont let it happen and let myself fail again but its quite happening again! then i looked back and i cant even remember what the hell i was doing last time wasting my time away in jc. which is stupid cos it was significant enough i would have remembered. and i cant believe talking to my com actually helped, i feel less shitty now yay excuse while i pop a champagne. omg sleep deprivation and proj deadlines does things to ur mind.

I never understood why people's actions differ from their words.